Youve got so much pain, but dont hurt yourself because of it. I know what your going through, im an ex-cutter. Pain is all you ever notice and it seems like the world is against you. I know, its okay. Just please dont cut yourself, there are too many suicides in the world already, just hang in there, someday soon somebody will come into your life and make it all better, all you need is to be held and loved!
you are both emotionally and physically scared a never ending pain caused by others betrayl,mistrust,and lack of reliabilty inflicted this pain.they say theres always a light at the end of the tunnel if you cant see it,maybe its true maybe its not but just hold on help is on the way.i hope .
you like a little bit of kink. you like the fact that he has free rein to touch you ANYWHERE and you get to feel all of his strokes on your heightened, sensitized flesh. you love the agony that you cant touch him anywhere and he has total control of whats going on and the pace. he kisses your neck and tortures you w/ lingering his lips near yours and tugging away when you try to capture his, but you kno after you'll get to cherish his body, you just like the agonizing wait.